He now sees me in all. Although this is not a small achievement, it is not everything that one must achieve. The last and most important step is still left. He is not one with God — not Realized. This Realization cannot be given to anyone other than circle members, except during Avataric periods when a few extra persons are selected to be God-realized.
I have in mind to prepare two or three extras for Realization. I intend to make 20 or 25 individuals saints by giving them Sight, but Realization to only a selected two or three, and Abdulla is one of them. Although he has the sight of God now, he cannot be immediately God-realized for certain reasons. First of all, the strain of that Realized state would be too severe for his already strained and weakened body, which for the last two or three months has been in danger. His body may collapse any moment at the slightest shock. It is with great difficulty that he has been brought down to the gross from the mental sphere, as you are all well aware from the outward symptoms for the last five or six days.
Then there is another more significant reason of the difficulty involved in bringing someone down after Realization, and that is to make him regain full normal consciousness. This is the most difficult task of all. Majzoobs can be easily made, but not saliks and Sadgurus. For this reason, Abdulla has been kept in "reserve," to be God-realized with two others and brought down at the same time as the circle members. For when I give that great push forward toward final Realization and "backward" in order to bring them down, these two or three extra individuals will be pushed in and then out.
In the meantime, Abdulla may now be at ease, having achieved the Sight. In his present state, he is even worthy of devotion. He is worthy of worship by yogis who may fall at his feet with much benefit to themselves and no harm to him, for he has now been freed from all bindings. If he leaves the body, he will be in me — free from the rounds of births and deaths. If he survives, he will be Realized and will prove a great asset to his [Islamic] community, being my special representative in Arabia.1
Footnotes
- 1.Abdulla Pakrawan was of Persian origin but had lived in Arabia prior to migrating to India. (The name Abdulla means Slave of God.)