"I remember it very well," she said.
Baba remarked, "I feel very open today, and you may tell me anything."
Cynthia was deeply concerned about her father's drinking. She said, "Baba, I'm worried about my father. He drinks too much."
Baba looked enormously pleased and interested in this information.
He asked, "Is he sick yet?"
Cynthia was so startled that Baba had looked pleased that she kept quiet. At the time, there was no hint of illness on her father's part, but years later, he became incapacitated by severe breathing difficulties. She also later realized that her father had actually been spreading Baba's name in the local pub he used to frequent. Baba's pleasure on being told that Stan Adams drank too much made Cynthia realize it was Baba's will that had brought this about and was really none of her business. It was between Baba and her father.
Baba informed her, "Your father, too, should attend the December sahavas." Then he asked, "But what about you? How about you?" and he repeated that she, too, must come.
During Baba's visit in 1956, he had asked Cynthia if she loved him.
He now repeated the same question, "Do you love me?"
"Yes," Cynthia said, "I think I do. I wasn't sure last time, but I think I do now."
"You must love me more," Baba gestured.
Then he stated, "You should read God Speaks from cover to cover several times. It will answer all your questions."
(At this, Cynthia thought: "What questions? I haven't got any!")
"What do you take me to be?" Baba asked.
"God."
He was pleased by her reply. "Yes," he motioned, "I am God," and Baba expounded on this theme a bit further.
They then discussed Francis Brabazon's two books Stay with God and Let Us, The People, Sing . Francis told Baba, "Cynthia has a very good voice." But she replied that she had given up singing lessons, and Baba did not ask her to sing. Baba seemed absorbed and withdrawn at this point.
Next, Baba called Janice Camm in and again asked if she would come in December.
"At darshan times I open the gates of love and let it flood my lovers' hearts," he explained.
Baba nodded at Cynthia and inquired, "What are your plans now?"
She said, "We intend returning to Poona, then going on to Delhi and possibly down to Madras and Bangalore."