Chapter 36: Interested In Remaining Disinterested
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The moment the intensity of your faith in my will reaches its height, you say goodbye to worry forever. Then all that you suffered and enjoyed in the past, together with all that you may experience in the future, will be to you the most loving and spontaneous expression of my will; and nothing will ever be able to cause you worry again.
Live more and more in the Present, which is ever beautiful and stretches away beyond the limits of the past and the future.
If you must worry at all, let your only worry be how to remember me constantly. This is worthwhile worry because it will bring about the end of worry.
Think of me more and more, and all your worries will disappear into the nothing they really are. My will works out to awaken you to this.
Ben and Joseph returned to Ahmednagar at 5:00 P.M. to see Adi Sr. and Sarosh and then went back to Meherabad. Baba's health was still not good, and he was quite restless after they left, but despite the pain, he had spent all day with them.
The following morning, 30 November, Baba had qawaali records played on the verandah of the main house, which he interpreted for Ben and Joseph. When they returned to the hall, the card game La Risque was played. Joseph's team seemed to be winning most of the time. Baba asked to see his hand, and finding it good he exchanged cards with him. Baba's side won, and Joseph had to rub his nose at Baba's feet for once. He said, "Baba, I lost, but still I won." Baba lovingly tousled his hair.
Baba called them into the hall again at 9:00 A.M. when they arrived in Meherazad on 1 December. He spent the day discoursing and explaining to them about Sufism, Hafiz, the mystical relationship of the lover and the Beloved — similar things he had said at Guruprasad the previous summer.
On the morning of Saturday, 2 December 1960, 100 poor persons from Pimpalgaon Village were brought to Meherazad. Baba washed their feet, bowed to them and handed each ten rupees as prasad. He allowed Ben Hayman and Joseph Harb to help in the work. He positioned Ben on his right and Joseph on his left, during the first half of the program. Ben would pass a ten-rupee note to Baba for each poor person, which Baba then handed to them. Joseph was busy giving Baba water and handing him the towels. He was keeping careful track of the number who had been washed and was amazed when, at exactly 50 (half), Baba reversed Joseph's and Ben's positions. At the end of the program, Baba went to his room to rest, as his head ached from all the bending down.