Chapter 36: Interested In Remaining Disinterested
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Along with Meherjee, Ben and Joseph were taken to Meherabad, where they were to stay. They were to be at Meherazad each day from 9:00 A.M. to 3:00 P.M. for the five days of their visit. Adi Jr. stayed in Ahmednagar, but he was also permitted to come to Meherazad every day.
BenJo's arrival certainly lessened the serious atmosphere prevailing in Meherazad at this time, and the mandali were happy Baba had allowed them to come. Eruch told them, "We must thank you for choosing to come now and giving us the opportunity of seeing Baba look so well, for we haven't seen him like this in a long time." Indeed, despite his ill health, during the five days Ben Hayman and Joseph Harb were there, Baba looked radiant.
The mandali were stunned by the sudden change, but Baba informed them, "You see me radiant and glorious, but you have no idea what I am passing through inwardly."
Baba saw Ben and Joseph as soon as they arrived the next day, Tuesday, 29 November 1960. After inquiring about their welfare, he took them for a walk around the garden.
"All this," he said, pointing to the flowers and fruit trees, "is the work of Mehera."
Joseph took several films of Baba.
When they returned to the hall, Baba discussed with Joseph his coming to live in India the following September.
"For the next eight months," Baba said, "I will remain in seclusion, seeing no one. Correspondence has also been stopped and will remain stopped as long as I prolong my present seclusion. I was to hold a meeting of my close lovers on December 4, but it has now been canceled. Instead, I will bow down and distribute prasad to 100 poor people on December 2."
They went for their lunch, and in the afternoon, Baba had a few recent unpublished discourses read to them. One was on his will and worry.
Duality signifies separateness. Separateness implies fear. Fear causes worry.
The way of Oneness is the way to happiness; the way of manyness is the way to worry. I am the One who has no second, so I am eternally happy. You are separate from your Self, so you always worry. To you, what you see is absolutely real; to me, it is absolutely false.
I alone am real, and my will governs the cosmic illusion. It is the truth when I say that the waves do not roll and the leaves do not move without my will.