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Chapter 4: Journeying

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Baba said, "You are my spiritual sister; therefore you, more than anyone else, should follow my orders and see that my wish is fulfilled."
Pilamai said, "I would sacrifice my life for you, Baba, but I cannot occupy this chair. I would feel ashamed to do so in your presence when you are sitting on an uncomfortable, wooden bench."
Baba said sternly, "You revere your feelings of shame more than me! And since you cannot carry out even my smallest wish, how could you ever hope to sacrifice your life for me?"
Baba continued, "Do not think it is so easy to give up your life for my cause. Give up your life while living by dying to your own desires!"
Pilamai pleaded, "Baba, I don't understand anything about spirituality, but this is an expensive and comfortable chair. I only want you to sit on it. I bought it for you alone."
Getting up, Baba angrily flung the chair out the window of the moving train! Only then did Pilamai realize that the Master valued nothing in this life except obedience to his wishes.
Baba did not say another word to Pilamai. After some time, her son Vithal began crying. It disturbed Baba who told her to stop his crying. Pilamai realized that she must do as he instructed so she tried her best to quiet the child. She gave him milk but he threw it aside and continued crying. Desperate, Pilamai took him to the toilet and stayed locked inside. Vithal finally stopped his tears, but as soon as Pilamai would bring him out of the lavatory, he would begin all over again, forcing his mother to hastily retreat inside. For almost two days, Pilamai's confinement in the foul-smelling toilet continued until the train reached Agra in northern India, where all disembarked on Sunday, 27 May.
Agra is a famous tourist town and the train station was crowded and hectic. Besides the women's four large, metal trunks, the baggage contained everyone's heavy bedding rolls and luggage. Baba had forbidden the mandali to hire coolies at the station, and so again these well-dressed men shouldered and carried the belongings on their heads. This displeased the poor coolies who were expecting to be hired. The stationmaster did not like it either, so he prevented the group from crossing the railway tracks, forcing them to go far out of their way over a railway bridge.
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