“”It was the most difficult thing to do: to know that he would betray and yet not to become weak. Jesus made Peter know that he would betray him for his work.
Judas was also made to betray. Peter betrayed willingly. It is most difficult when you love the one you betray. For example, suppose you [pointing to one] love me most. You are Peter. You [pointing to another] are Judas. I want you both to kill me. Now you, Peter, are made to kill me. You would not willingly do so. You are asked by me to kill me, and you love me more than your life. But you will lovingly kill me for my work.
Even Arjuna could not be like Peter. Krishna had to show him his Universal Body before he would kill his brothers and relatives in battle.
You, Judas, [pointing to that one] love me very much. I turn the key and you go against me for my work. You do not go against me of your own accord. I make you go against me in order to tell people all about me. You do it willingly, knowing that people hearing you would beat me and crucify me.
All this means love, faith and sacrifice. If you do what I ask willingly, you really love me. If you are made to do it, you love me a little less. But if you do not do it, it all turns out like today's mango business when you all hesitated to accept when I offered you the mangoes.
Baba concluded, "God's grace makes you love me. My grace makes you one with me."
The next day, Baba left Nasik at 4:00 P.M. for Meherabad. Six days later, on Wednesday evening, 26 May, he arrived back in Nasik unexpectedly. Delia, Jean, Will and Malya were feeling ill and Baba went to Sarzat to see them. Delia's temperature, which had been quite high all day, suddenly fell to normal.
“”Baba, snapping his fingers, dictated, "Quick, march!" which they took to mean they would soon be leaving Nasik for somewhere else.
Baba stayed in Nasik for a few days, and on the morning of 28 May before breakfast, he delivered this discourse on love (which Nadine wrote down):
“”What is love? To give and never to ask. What leads to this love? Grace. What leads to this grace? Grace is not cheaply bought. It is gained by being always ready to serve and reluctant to be served.
