Of course, I can help him and give him a push and do him much good, but I am only afraid for his health, for he may drop the body at any moment, which is not desirable. He must remain conscious as much as possible, and that is why I am feeling much concerned in his case, too.
In such cases, one may either drop the body, go crack[ers] or the curtain [veil] may be opened. The curtain must be opened by his own efforts, as he himself tried to see without my interfering. To others I may give [divine sight], I can help them. (Even in these cases, too, I can't interfere for two days at least). Anyway, if Rajaram dies, even now or afterwards also, he will be in me. I have already tried in his case two or three times to bring him to the proper conscious state, but seeing his already too weakened body, I had to give up.
No one can imagine how Meher Baba suffered the whole night of the 30th to bring Ali, Rajaram, and Chhota Baba down from that spiritual state. Chanji noted in his diary: "Abdulla's condition getting worse, quite dangerous and harmful. Heartbeats were quite fast and people said if it goes on like this, the heart will stop beating. Whole night Baba was awake and sat near [Chhota Baba's] head all the time, and also during the day. Till four in the evening, Baba was continuously involved with Abdulla. This state of Abdulla was so delicate that Baba himself became sick; he took it upon himself."
On Tuesday, 31 January 1928, Baba appeared exhausted and did not even come to the window of his room, but remained inside most of the day. Raosaheb stayed with Baba and Chhota Baba (whose health too had not yet improved), while Rustom took over Raosaheb's duties in the school.
Baba had a private talk with Rustom that day, and Gulmai also visited and was permitted to sit on the platform outside Baba's cabin for some time.
Chhota Baba became more conscious that day and wept before Baba, pleading with him, "Please give me the tongue so that I may speak and declare to the world that I have been seeing you everywhere at all times. I will speak with the force of real experience of having seen for myself!"
However, Baba ordered him to "keep quiet" for the present and stated that he would decide later, when Chhota Baba was stronger.