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Chapter 6: Love Is Weeping

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On 30 March, Behramji complained to Baba that Padri was locking himself in his room and playing draughts. Baba made three decisions: The playing of draughts was forbidden; none was to enter Padri's room without his permission; and Padri was exempted from the responsibilities and binding agreements to which the other mandali (except for Gustadji and Jalbhai) were subject.
But Baba was upset by Padri's actions, and the next day he admonished the mandali: "Don't show disrespect to this holy place and its Lord. To bring all of you around, I will have to closet myself inside for several days, leaving you to your own devices. Then I will see how you carry on. I won't issue any instructions and will remain aloof. You may go anywhere and do as you wish. Would you like that?"
After a discussion, the mandali consented to carry out Behramji's behests since he was the appointed manager and further agreed that he should report anyone's failure in this respect to Baba. The mandali were to carry on their assigned duties, but were now freed of many of the small rules and were free to go anywhere in the colony, except for the women's quarters. Padri, Gustadji and Jalbhai also agreed, and Baba was satisfied with their decision.
In the evening of 31 March, after his return from attending a bhajan-kirtan music program in Ahmednagar at Gorakh Garden in the railway colony, Baba gathered the mandali near the dhuni and explained:
The worries and troubles of the world are all due to "thinking." Thoughts and thoughts! Thinking should be stopped. Soon, I am going to take upon myself the thinking [worries] of the world, which will severely affect my health. A time will come when I will be so disabled that the mandali will have to feed me and administer water to my lips.
You will see what will happen. My suffering will be so acute that it will be difficult for you to witness it. All will worry about me, so much so that, except for a few, the majority of you will go away. You will not be able to bear the sight of it, as it will practically turn me into a corpse. But after this boundless anguish, in horrible pain and with a wrecked and near lifeless body, I will open my mouth for that one unique cause; and every utterance of mine will be worshiped.
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