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Chapter 4: Journeying

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The mandali liked the idea more since the area was similar to Pavagarh.
They descended the mountain at noon. After lunch, they returned to Baroda at 8:15 P.M., spending the night in the Gujarat Lodge.
The following day, the Master again repeated his same enigmatic statement that he had declared throughout the tour: "I am not a Baba!"
Confronting the mandali, he cried out, "It is you who have bestowed Baba-hood upon me! Now sadhus and saints want to crush me!"
By this time, Padri, Gustadji, and Behramji were fed up with hearing this baffling repetition and pleaded with Baba to cease such statements.
In reply, Baba said, "I am serious, I have no stuff in me! And my Masters, Babajan and Maharaj, also have no stuff in them! Upasni Maharaj is not even a saint, let alone a Sadguru!"
When one of the men asked why he uttered such strange statements about his Masters, Baba explained, "Divine Law compels me to say it, and Divine Law applies to you also. Whatever you do, you are obliged to do it according to Divine Law."
Baba's remarks were mainly directed toward Padri, who was only 21 at the time. The reason Baba was constantly repeating this over and over again was that Padri's mind had become disturbed, thinking: "What type of spirituality is this? What type of Masters are these who behave toward one another in a way in which even ordinary people would hesitate to act?!"
When Padri had delivered the horse Sufi and the ox Sant to Upasni Maharaj at Sakori, Maharaj had not only abused and cursed him terribly, but he also refused to accept the animals. This was inexplicable when it had been clearly explained that they had been sent by Meher Baba.
Padri thought: "If Baba already knew what was going to happen, why did he send Nervous and me there in the first place? Why did Maharaj act so furiously?" Along the tour, the questions disturbing Padri's mind were answered by Baba at different times without ever being voiced. Padri knew Baba's remarks were directed at him and felt ashamed for doubting the wisdom of the Master's orders, though he found no way to understand their full meaning.
Despite their attempts to control their minds, the men still became fed up with Baba for repeating the same theme again and again. He would do so morning, noon, and night, until they could not tolerate hearing how saints and sadhus were out to destroy his Baba-hood.
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