This was the only help we could give him. It is impossible for Baba's men and women mandali to describe the intensity of his suffering at that time for the sake of his lovers and for the world. His mercy is infinite; his love is infinite. He takes upon himself the misery of all beings and bestows love and mercy in its place.
Baba was coming to mandali hall every day, but after Sunday, 12 January 1969, he never left his bedroom. Day by day, his condition became more worrisome. On the 13th, from 8:30 P.M. until 8:45 A.M. the next morning Baba did not pass any urine — a period of more than 12 hours. Goher had to give him medication for this.
January 13 was Bhau's birthday, and though Baba was in poor health, he embraced Bhau tenderly.
Baba stopped taking much nourishment from around the 13th of January. He began having severe cramps, and the slightest movement would give him terrible spasmodic jolts. When he used his fingers to gesture, he would receive sudden shocks which caused his whole body to rise off the bed! Again an attempt was made to urge him to move to Poona, but Baba refused.
On Tuesday, 14 January 1969, the Hindu festival Sankrant was celebrated and Baba distributed the traditional sweets with the invocation: "Take this sweet and speak sweetly ever after."
Don Stevens was also remembered, as it was his birthday.
Eruch was told to read out the 101 names of God: "Worthy of Worship ... Omnipotent ... Omniscient ... Lord of All ... Without Beginning ... Without End ..." As each name was spoken, Baba repeatedly made the circle gesture of perfection.
That day, Adi recorded in his diary:
Baba's suffering time and again erupts into different symptoms, thus throwing those near him and us here into a worry, which keeps us all in tension, [despite] knowing full well that he is the Master of his work and strong enough to bear up its reaction. Don informed about this. No urine passed for twelve hours. Later get the news that Baba passes urine and we are relieved.
On the 15th, Bhau wrote to Burjor Chacha in Dehra Dun: "Baba's health has not yet improved and he has gone very weak. It seems he is crucified every moment to give life water to the dying humanity, and to prepare it to listen to his Word."
Dhake's birthday was on the 16th, and he sent with Manek jalebis, bhujias, paan and other delicacies for Baba and the mandali's afternoon tea. His note was read to Baba, and Baba sent him a reply through Eruch, telling him that his love made him happy.
As the days passed, Baba became weaker. On 17 January, another blood sample was sent to Poona. (The results showed a considerable improvement in the level of urea at 97, but a drop in the hemoglobin to 9.) Goher wrote to Meherjee, saying that Baba felt weak and had not walked for several days, but was trying to take regular exercise by standing up for a few minutes every day. The tremors and jolts continued, but with less intensity, though sometimes they happened suddenly.