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Chapter 39: No Drugs

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A short while later Robert Antoni was admitted to a hospital in an emergency. He remained in a coma for three days. Yvonne cabled Baba again. She was not allowed to see her husband and was told that this was the end, that he was being kept alive artificially. All night she asked Baba to bring Robert back to life, if it was his will.
The next morning a telegram came from Baba, stating: "Robert will live."
At noon the hospital called Yvonne to say that Robert was better and she would be allowed to see him.
Although still ill from the accident, Robert remained alive for another year and a half. In December 1966, after being in and out of one hospital and nursing home after another, Robert requested that Yvonne cable Baba, asking if he would ever get better.
On 27 December, Baba cabled: "Robert is to accept his lot."
Robert Antoni understood that this meant it was the end, and answered in a quiet voice, "I accept."
One month later, on 27 January 1967, Robert Antoni passed away at the age of 58. Yvonne was informed of it by the hospital. As she was hanging up the telephone at the same moment the doorbell rang. A telegram from Baba was delivered.
It read: "Yvonne, be happy, Robert is with me. Take care of your health. Baba."
Later in May 1965, Baba himself remembered certain individuals who had not been able to attend the sahavas earlier that month, and he fixed a special darshan program for them in the first week of June 1965. He had a letter written to those concerned, such as Ramsahai Yadav of Barua Sagar, Narayanidevi Jha of Mandla, and Adarsh Khare of Hamirpur. Some devotees were sent word to come through Jalbhai.
Baba remarked, "This is my last darshan, and after this there will be no more darshan programs."
Shivendra Sahai of Lucknow had not been able to attend the May darshan, and he was called early and granted a private interview.
Baba asked him, "Do you love me?'
He replied honestly, "I do not know."
The mandali were taken aback, but Baba held up his hand and then asked, "Will you obey me and do what I say?"
Shivendra replied that he would.
Baba looked directly in his eyes and with a very serious expression asked, "If I ask you to cut Bhau's throat, will you do that?"
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