For a year and a half, she remained there, undergoing rigorous spiritual austerity.
Next she journeyed into the Punjab of India and stayed for some months in Multan. The flames of separation were now consuming her, and she pleaded, "Come, O Beloved, come! I am going. I am gone! I cannot wait!" Twenty years had passed. Gulrukh was 37 years old when she was completely ready "to go" — to die the final death. Not even a sanskaric speck of worldly attachment was left to prevent her from finally departing. The Beloved, too, was anxiously waiting to embrace her.
In Multan, she met a Mohammedan Qutub, known as Maula Shah , whose divine grace made Gulrukh disappear, allowing her to merge in the Beloved forever. Gulrukh died the final spiritual death; she became God-realized. The illusion of the universe faded away before her eyes as she became the Creator. Her soul cried out in all-consuming bliss, "I alone am. There is no one besides me. Anal Haq [I am God]!"
Time, too, disappeared. In her state of majzoobiyat , Gulrukh was aware of being God-conscious, but she was unconscious of creation, of her body and mind. She was God-conscious but not illusion-conscious. In her perfect bliss, she alone existed in a state of divine absorption. Gulrukh had become perfect, One with God, but had no consciousness of the illusory existence of Prakruti in Infinite Existence. In this state of majzoobiyat, there is no existence of duality or manyness; the divine I or Ego alone is. Gulrukh had become a perfect majzoob of the seventh plane — God unto himself. She had no awareness that all of creation was hidden like a shadow in the light of her Godhood.
But Gulrukh was not destined to escape Prakruti, although she had temporarily lost all consciousness of it. Prakruti knew that this God-conscious woman could not remain indifferent toward her responsibilities indefinitely. This soul, now spiritually Perfect, had to know and control illusion as illusion in order to play the magnificent role for which she alone was destined. She had to summon the Awakener to Earth, and then to unveil him.
From India, in her God-realized state, Gulrukh, journeyed back to the northern regions, drawn again to Rawalpindi and to her previous Hindu Master. The Hindus called her a Brahmi-bhoot.1 She had achieved the Goal, but the consciousness to lead others to It was not perfected in her.
Footnotes
- 1.In Vedanta, a Brahmi-bhoot is a God-realized person drowned in the Ocean (infinity) of God. The Sufis call such a person a majzoob.