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Chapter 35: Guruprasad, 1960

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With Ivy's persistent encouragement, Dedolchow had tried for some time to meet Baba, since the cargo ships he worked on would often dock in Calcutta. Baba finally allowed him to come "for five minutes," if he could manage it. So in September 1959, when his ship docked in Calcutta, Dedolchow took leave and traveled with A. C. S. Chari to see Baba. They arrived at Meherazad at 8:30 A.M. on 7 September. Instead of five minutes, Baba allowed him to stay for about two hours.
After they arrived, Dedolchow was told to wait outside mandali hall until Baba called him inside. Soon the call came. He followed Chari inside and sat on the floor beside him. Chari immediately took out his notebook to write down what Baba, through Eruch, stated. Baba called Dedolchow near him. On approaching, Dedolchow looked at Baba continuously and tried to bow at his feet.
Baba stopped him and said: "Harry, you have come at such a time when I have stopped giving darshan. All correspondence is also closed. Had you come before, you would have seen me brilliant, in a jolly mood. I myself would have welcomed you. Still, you are fortunate to get the opportunity to come to me when others cannot approach me. And because of you, Chari has the same opportunity. He too is lucky to be here. These days, I do not allow anyone to bow down to me."
Baba added, "I know everything, Harry, and your love pleases me."
Harry Dedolchow later recounted:
The moment I entered the building [mandali hall] a very mild electric current flooded my entire body. When I sat down alongside Chari and turned slightly to my right to look at Baba, Baba was out of focus, while the entire mandali were in focus — similar to a person looking through a camera and focusing the lens for clarity. No matter how much I strained my eyes to see Baba clearly, Baba remained out of focus.
Baba was relating his words through Eruch, but Dedolchow's concentration was on Baba.
Baba finally remarked, "You are not listening to me!"
Baba's pronounced statement broke up Dedolchow's temporary lofty state and he then saw Baba clearly.
Dedolchow said, "Baba, I am unable to love you as much as I wish. I want to love you as you want to be loved. I long to do that."
Baba replied, explaining, "Until now, I have not got a lover who loves me as I should be loved. When a lover is in love, he experiences his love continuously and cannot express it. Love has no limit. You can love as much as you can because love is not in short supply. As a matter of fact, there is a shortage of lovers!
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