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Chapter 35: Guruprasad, 1960

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Baba remarked to Kenmore, "You are very fortunate. You are not only staying with God, but playing with Him as well."
On 3 September, Baba mentioned to Kenmore how tired he felt: "Formerly I used to go to Kaikobad's room to work for five minutes. It used to exhaust me. I thought that the pressure was too much for my body and it would not bear it. But now, instead of five minutes, I work for half an hour. Only Kaikobad can help me in that work. Today, Kaikobad, too, could not tolerate the unbearable condition. Kaikobad told me that he was awfully tired."
Kaikobad interjected, "Baba's work is unspeakable and intolerable [for me]. Today, I informed Baba that I was unable to help him for more than half an hour."
Baba continued:
Until the end of October is the time for my Universal work. Whatever work was done at Poona is nothing compared to what I am doing now. Although the mandali cannot understand this work, I tell you the work has its own importance. See how it tires me.
Only when I return from Kaikobad's room after finishing my work do the mandali have an opportunity to see and feel my tiredness, and experience my weak state of health. I find it difficult even to open my eyes or move my body. Yet, in this terrible state of health, I play with the mandali and express my happiness. At first, I appear burdened by the tremendous pressure of work, but after some time people see my face look cheerful. Today, I was playing [cards] and immediately I stopped the play and went inside. All of it is related to my work.
Baba further stated: "These days, I have stopped listening to letters, not because I feel weak, but to give more time to my work. Generally, I go back to my room at three o'clock. You people think it is for rest, but the fact is, I do so for my work."
Two days later, Baba remarked, "Every part of my body is painful."
Another day, he said, "My body feels as if it is being squeezed — like a cloth being wrung of water."
Once Baba wondered, "What made me produce this tamasha [farce of maya] that is now hanging around my neck and makes me suffer so? I cannot get rid of it!"
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