Baba reminded him of the verses of Kabir:
If something is given by the Master, on his own, it is like milk; If asked for, it is like water; If forced, it is like blood. This is what Kabir says.
"You think only about pleasing yourself," Baba scolded. "You have no thought of keeping my pleasure. What sort of love is this? Christ had a Judas; don't be one to me! Sit here for today. From tomorrow, do the japa at the time I have given you."
Folding both his hands, Baba then warned him, "For God's sake, from tomorrow don't make me angry with you."
Baba stretched out his hand to give a copy of the 16 October Life Circular to Kumar, but Aloba jumped up to take it. This made Kumar laugh, much to Aloba's chagrin.
Baba now turned on him, correcting Kumar, "Don't laugh at others' mistakes. All commit mistakes. This is a contravention of my order not to hurt the feelings of others. You laughed at his error and hurt his feelings."
Baba then asked Aloba to remain in his room from the next day onwards, so that he might not commit any mistake in Baba's presence and put himself up for further ridicule. Baba cited this verse of the poet Jigar:
Love, thy name is annihilation! Don't seek life in love; Take His will as your pleasure; don't look to your own!1
From the following day, Aloba began staying in his room, but he felt miserable not seeing Baba. Baba called him and, to console him, explained:
Suppose there is a beautiful queen and she encounters a roadside beggar who has leprosy. His whole body gives off a terrible stench. Once, chancing to look at the queen, he falls in love with her. He has a right to love the queen, and his physical misfortune is no bar to his loving her. But if he wants to embrace the queen, would she like it? And should the beggar have that sort of love for the queen? On the contrary, if he strengthens his love, by keeping the queen's happiness always in mind, it is possible that, moved by his plight, the queen may notice him and begin to help him sometime in the future.
Footnotes
- 1.Iskaq fana-ka naam hai, Iskq-me zindagi na dekh; Uski khushi, khushi samaj, apni khushi khushi na dekh!