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Chapter 33: Western Sahavas, 1958

1958Page 4,439 of 5,444
Baba was in a cheerful mood, and when informed of Homa's blunder, he remarked to him, "I am so happy today that I forgive you. Now, drive fast."
Baba's fever left him and his face glowed with triumph, as if he had won a major victory. Throughout the previous night, Bhau witnessed how restless Baba appeared. Goher had tried her best to make him urinate, administering diuretics and other preparations, but all her efforts were to no avail. Baba had been in a wretched mood when they set out for Poona. But after the darshan, a transformation had taken place, so the mandali concluded that Baba was in fact suffering only for others. He had to do some special inner work at Saint Mira High School, and it manifested in this physical way. His real work was to take the burden of others' sanskaras upon himself, and it was the sole cause of his suffering.
Back at Meherazad that evening, Baba went to the toilet, cleared his bowels and urinated freely. At night when Bhau was on nightwatch, Baba passed the night in a fine mood and appeared in splendid health.
"It was always the case," Age noted. "Baba suffered every moment of his life on Earth. But before or after certain functions such as a sahavas or darshan program, or his work in seclusion, his suffering in some way would increase unimaginably, and his entire physical being would appear crushed to pieces. Yet, when he was among his lovers, he was smiling and beaming, and none of them had any idea of his pain. But the inner circle knew well how Baba suffered for his lovers and the universe. Truly, day and night, he was worshiping himself in his lovers and, on account of this, he had to shoulder and bear their good and bad impressions, which physically caused havoc to his health. He would give joy to others, but suffer for their benefit."
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