Baba truly worships his lovers, and nothing ever remains hidden from him. Later, when Krishna met Baba, Baba asked about what had happened that day.
“”Baba commented, "You think I am here only, but I am everywhere — all over the world, and in your heart also."
Krishna told Baba how miserable he was in Bombay. Baba reminded him that when he was a boy and Baba had asked him what he wanted, he had replied, "I want you, Baba."
“”"Do you remember that?" Baba asked him. "Wanting me means to follow my orders."
Krishna said, "At that time I thought it would be simple to follow your wishes, but it is very, very difficult."
“”Baba said, "Never mind. Return to your job. This is my order. You are free to come and see me whenever you like."
Krishna narrated his meeting with Nityananda.
“”Baba asked, "Did you take the saint's darshan?"
Krishna replied, "No, he was laughing."
“”Baba replied, "He was not laughing. I was laughing. I, myself, was laughing. You wanted to die? Never think of suicide again!"
Hakumat Rai Kapil of Delhi had been waiting for Baba's "call" since meeting Baba four years before in Dehra Dun. At the time, he had renounced the world and was going to Rishikesh for God-realization.
“”Baba had explained. "It is easy to renounce externally, but it is very, very difficult to renounce in the way you have to renounce. You have to renounce nothing but your own self. And it is impossible without my help."
Baba assured him that he would call him soon, and Hakumat followed Baba's instructions, went to Rishikesh and then back to Delhi, where he resumed his job and remained with his family.
“”Over the years, Baba would remind him periodically, "At any time, I will send you a telegram telling you to renounce everything and come to me. You must come immediately without delay."
In this way, Hakumat's concentration was focused on Baba as he awaited Baba's telegram.
“”From Meherazad, one day Baba sent Hakumat this telegram: "Leave everything and come to me."
Hakumat Rai arrived, and Baba expressed his happiness telling him to rest for three days.
“”After three days, Baba told him, "Listen carefully. If you want God-realization you must obey my orders."
"I've come to you for this purpose," Hakumat replied
“”Baba said, "My first order is to go back to Delhi, remain with your family and lead a normal life. The next time I call you, I will not send you back. You have given me your promise that you will obey me 100 percent. Now I will see whether you obey or not."
Hakumat returned to Delhi, and again waited for Baba's telegram, which further increased his longing.
“”Baba called him after some time and, at Meherazad, told him, "Last night, I saw that your wife expired. Your children also died suddenly. Are you worried about them?"
"No, Baba, I am happy here with you," he said.
