This I is magnified at every step, and the manifestation of the magnification is such that he wants more and more. This I is magnifying continually. Those who have progressed on the spiritual path, their ego too has magnified. The I becomes all the more elevated and asserts itself all the more strongly. "I want to bless people, I want to bestow a child," and so forth. And thus the I goes on.
But where has this I come from? When Eruch was born, he had no sense and did not know anything. But no sooner he took birth, the I in him began crying for his mother's milk: "I want milk." This I from Eruch's very birth asserts itself directly or indirectly, and with the passing of days, this I grows. Once it begins, it gets strengthened day by day. But being entangled in this I , Eruch never asks himself from where he has come, why he has come and where he has to go!
Where is the root of this "I"? Originally, in the Beyond Beyond, there was nothing. You will find this explained in God Speaks . All of a sudden there was a whim (lahar) of "I want to know who I am." That original I is the root of this false I or ego, and since that time, until it merges in its original state of "I-Am-God," it will go on and on. Everything has been explained from beginning to end in God Speaks .
Eternity has no beginning and no end. But this I came into being due to the whim in God's Beyond, Beyond state, and it remains active as long as it does not attain its original state consciously. Thus, as long as a person is not God-realized, to feign divinity before people is first-class hypocrisy.
Up until now we have spoken about pretense; now we shall come to miracles. This is of the utmost importance for those who love me and want to know my ways. I receive letters from the East and West, and other parts of the world that I have performed this miracle and that miracle. But I have declared before, and told the Gujarati and Telugu groups also, that since the time I have come among you, I have not performed a single miracle. And when I break my silence, it will be my first and last miracle.