As I said, this process goes on age after age. Those who are dear to me depend upon me. For my work I have to give them orders. Dependence increases day by day. In my every incarnation it is the same case. Formerly in Meherabad we had several institutions. I spend money when I have it on such establishments and dissolve them when there is no money. Nothing is permanent with me. Elsewhere in the world it is different. The heart of my every lover is my ashram. Gifts of love I accept with love and disburse with love. But from now on I want to free myself from all these self-imposed bindings. The time is drawing near. Do not take anything as promises. I am free from promises, and I have a habit of promising one day and forgetting the next.
From the 15th of February 1956, I want to be far away from all these bindings. I have important work to do. I have to make provisions for those who depend upon me for one full year. I have a plan for it. I am thinking of enjoying such complete freedom from these self-imposed bindings that I do not even want any correspondence, nor to see the faces of those who all the time stay near me. I am thinking of such things. I am also thinking of an exclusive program for women. There are letters and telegrams to this effect from many women. This epidemic of darshan is now spreading far and wide. It is not practical to call women and children here. I am thinking of a two-day program at each place exclusively for women. There are also rumors about my traveling to America. A flying visit of a few days only. Nothing certain or anything definite yet. From next February 15 I am going to keep myself aloof from the mandali. I have two months — December and January — in hand to arrange for my dependents. I want to visit different places in India; I might even travel to the West.
Now about the fourth point, spreading Baba's message of love. The workers in Andhra have practically covered almost all the villages there. In Hamirpur District of Uttar Pradesh it is also the case. All men, women and children know Baba and love Baba. There were one or two villages opposed to this work, but some chamatkar [miracle] made them rally round Baba's cause. On the Nagpur side Deshmukh, Nana Kher, Pophali — and on the Delhi and Dehra Dun side, Kishan Singh — are looking after this work. Practically in all parts of India, my lovers are doing their best to spread Baba's message of love.