Yesterday evening, I asked him if I was right in giving darshan to the two persons from Dehra Dun. He replied that I was not right in doing so. I asked why. He said it was against my own order. Again, my action of giving Rs.100 to each of them as prasad was also objectionable in his eyes, because he said that had they been allowed to suffer for the risk of love they had undertaken, they would have remembered Baba more and more.
Last night, I thought over his replies and found that whatever I did was right. How? I had declared that I would not give darshan to anyone, nor would I distribute prasad. But I had also declared that I would not have any meetings, too. And now I have called you all here for this small group meeting. Now, when I called a meeting, was it fair on my part to deny darshan to those persons who came from such a long distance?
Concluding, Baba then spoke about the provisions for food, clothing, and so on, made for the mandali during the three months of May to July 1955.
He said: "The provision for the period until July end is made. After that period, I cannot say definitely what would be the monetary position. Most of the sources of income from the East and West have dried up. Perhaps we may be required to beg; but I assure you [the mandali] who would decide to stay with me, that I will share in every way, including food, clothing, et cetera, with you all."
Baba also mentioned that a special standing provision for the women mandali had been arranged.
Baba continued, "This would be the time of greater difficulties and hardships, and so if anyone decides to leave me now, I would be happy. Otherwise, I tell you, there will be no end to difficulties. Of course, by this I do not mean that you should purposely decide to live away from me; only if you feel like living away from me can you freely do so."
Baba joked, "I have a very small heart, and so when the mandali suffer physically and mentally, I feel happy. And when they get good food and enjoy amenities, I feel unhappy — for I have a small, a very small, heart!"
General orders for everyone for the three months from 1 May to 31 July were read out by Eruch: