“”I now go back to the first point and return to this later. The original state of the beginningless beginning was the infinite sound sleep state of the Infinite One. In the beginningless beginning, when there was no creation, no universe — not even nothing — there was only the "IS" state of God.
Then started the Ten States of God, which you will find described in God Speaks. During the processes of evolution and reincarnation, impressions were gathered. Body, energy and mind developed, and the Soul, in spite of its infinite state, experienced itself as the finite body, as energy and as mind, due to these impressions.
Now we return. In sound sleep, Malcolm [Schloss] is not conscious of body, energy, mind, and only Malcolm as real Malcolm exists. The important point is that Malcolm in the sound sleep state exists as "I am Malcolm" and is unconscious of this "I-ness." The ego in the sound sleep or absolute unconscious state is called "the natural ego." There are three kinds of ego; the first is the natural ego.
What wakes you up from sound sleep? The impressions that lie on your mind. They say, "Malcolm, wake up; we want to be spent." So Malcolm wakes up and spends the impressions through thinking, desiring, acting. And Malcolm, while spending the impressions, thinks "I am this body." This I is called the false ego. Let us not go too deeply into this. Malcolm who really is Malcolm and not this body, according to impressions, takes one form after another, and goes on spending new impressions. But this is a different chapter.
While spending old impressions, new impressions are formed, which also need spending. So ever new forms are taken, according to good and bad impressions — man, woman, beautiful, ugly, rich, poor, strong, weak and so forth. They are like different clothes which you alternately wear and discard. All along, this false ego persists.
Then comes a time when the impressions grow fainter and fainter, scarcer and scarcer. Eventually they become so faint that they fade away completely, and when impressions are not there, mind's functioning is stopped. The heart is now naked and pure because there are now no desires, longings, feelings. Yet you are still there. Then the I, void of all impressions, has no bindings, no limits. It now experiences that state which is above mind — the mind is no longer there.
