There should not be the least tinge of show, as show belittles the significance of everything. Now, Baba is sitting here on this ground. It is a natural sitting position and has nothing to do with spirituality or for the sake of show. Still, if people have contrary thoughts, let them have them. I am what I am. So whatever the Sadguru orders should be followed 100 percent, but with real love and not mechanically.
Baba concluded his discourse:
Upasni Maharaj was the first who told me I was the Avatar. Today, I know that I am the Avatar. Since eternity, everything existed. In eternity, there is nothing like time. It has no beginning and no end. Those sitting here were there before and are today. There is no change in their continuity, but this is all a play. Happiness and misery, too, are a play!
By sitting on the stone floor, Godavri's legs had become stiff and she was feeling uncomfortable.
This reminded Baba of an event that happened before he regained normal consciousness: "I told a lover of mine named Bahadur to pour a bucketful of human excrement over me, and he did it after collecting it from latrines. I was sitting naked in one posture. The dirty waste dried on my body's skin making my limbs stiff. After 36 hours when I got up [came out of that state], it was cleaned [by Behramji and Sayyed Saheb]. But my body had become rigid. After two days' massaging, I was able to move about. So I know what stiffening of the legs feels like!"
Afterward, at 2:15 P.M., a singer named Jagannath sang a song of Shankar and Parvati, and Baba joined him in accompaniment, drumming his fingers on his alphabet board as if playing a drum.1 It was hot under the shed, and Baba's forehead was damp with perspiration, which Eruch wiped away a few times. Then, between his two fingers, Baba began spinning his board as he used to do at times. He handed the board to one of the kanyas to twirl. She tried, but could not do it. Then Dhake tried, but without success.
Baba stated:
There is none in the world as happy and miserable as me. If all the happiness of the whole world were put together and compared with my Bliss, it would only be the seventh shadow of that Real Bliss! People credit me with miracles, but the truth is that I have done no miracles up to now. When I break my silence, I will perform the greatest miracle. Just as by switching on the electric light, due to connection with the powerhouse, there is light; similarly those connected with me will receive the light when I utter the Word.
Footnotes
- 1.Shankar is another name for Shiva, whose wife was Parvati.