From now on, I won't tell you anything. You draw up a program, give it to me and I will follow it."
Gustadji replied, "If the situation were really like this, I would not have come to you but, on the contrary, I would have taken you to my house. If your desire is to test me, I do not see the necessity of it, since I have already suffered enough at the hands of Sai Baba and Upasni Maharaj. You are welcome to try the novices in this Path. In spite of my finding no necessity for being tested, I do things and work with others just to keep them company and help them. Now, when things appear to be going smoothly, every two or three days you bring up something that causes mutual annoyance and creates an argument between us. Such incidents dampen my spirit and dishearten me."
Baba consoled him. "Having such a close connection with me — actually being my 'Dark Side' — does it behoove you to suggest that my orders and actions are at random and meaningless? I have not gathered the whole of the mandali and kept them with me to try them or you. Even after my Experience, Maharaj made me sit in filth. Where was the necessity in that? Should I consider it as a trial in my case? I do not intend to test you or anyone. I only ask you to do exactly what I tell you. In so doing you will help me in my work. "
"I am always ready to obey your orders." Gustadji replied earnestly. "And with a clear conscience I can say that I have been doing so all along."
Baba concluded, "Do not try to grasp my actions; you will never fathom them.
Even if I hand you a cup of poison, drink it without the least hesitation. By so doing, you will greatly ease the burden of my work."
At this point Gustadji quieted but inwardly felt distressed. Baba had referred to him as his "Dark Side," which he had once explained to the mandali: "Gustadji, unlike the rest of you, is fully prepared for Realization. The only thing needed is to tear open the veil." But Gustadji felt that by being the "Dark Side," the Master was making him grope more and more in darkness before enlightening him!
After this confrontation, Baba went to Ghani's room and asked him what he thought about what had happened.