At 8:45 A.M. on 2 May 1953, Baba dictated in Gujarati a "prelude" to the Repentance Prayer:
O Eternally Benevolent Paramatma [in Gujarati] O All-Merciful Allah! [in Arabic] O Most Merciful God Almighty! [in English] Knowing that You are so absolutely independent, I have taken hold of Your independence And I am approaching you. I, Baba, with absolute humility, on his behalf and on behalf of all who love him, and on behalf of all worthy penitents, I wish to express my repentance Please accept what I now say on behalf of all ...
During his stay in Mussoorie, Baba once declared: "When we love God in His own Infinite Self and in all other selves except our own self, in the end we find that all the time we have been loving our own self."
This quote was reprinted in a circular issued on Sunday, 10 May 1953, informing his lovers that from 15 May to the end of September: "No one should correspond with Meher Baba for any reason whatsoever."
Meanwhile, Baba directed Eruch that he wished Swami Premananda to visit him after two months instead of one month. (He was the swami from Uttar Pradesh to whom Baba had given the three "simple" orders.) Eruch went to Dehra Dun but learned that Premananda had gone to Delhi. He telephoned him, and Premananda informed him that he had recently suffered a severe heart attack and had been bedridden for weeks. As the date of his interview with Baba approached, he had begun worrying as to how it would be possible for him to make it. Hearing this news, he said to Eruch "Baba is truly compassionate and all-knowing"
At the beginning of May, Premananda came to Mussoorie but along with him he brought a young woman.
Baba's first question to him was: "Have you come alone?"
Premananda explained that when he was ill, this young woman had nursed him so well that he thought to bring her for Baba's darshan.
Baba sternly spelled out, "I had asked you to come alone; you could not follow even this small order?"
Baba, however, called the woman inside and complimented her for her efforts in serving the swami. He gave her a rose petal as prasad and asked her to wait outside.
Continuing his interview with Premananda, he asked, "Did you read my books?"
Premananda replied that because he was so sick, he had not been able to read anything.