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Chapter 23: Fiery Free Life

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Bhau had not a clue who the companions with Meher Baba were, and he began asking each, "Are you with Baba?"
At last Bhau met some of the mandali, but was told that an interview with Baba was not possible. Savak Kotwal suggested he write to Adi's office in Ahmednagar. Ranga Rao of Andhra had come to Saoner with his son and Dr. Kanakadandi Suryanarayana of Eluru. Bhau met them, and though they too were new, Ranga Rao assured Bhau he could arrange for him to get an interview with Baba. Gadekar advised Bhau to read Jean Adriel's book, Avatar , and reiterated that an interview at this time was impossible.
The darshan lasted until evening, and when it was over Baba left for the Circuit House, where no visitor was allowed. Until nightfall, Bhau circled the bungalow in an uneasy frame of mind. All ideas of proceeding to Rishikesh were fading; he felt in his heart that the One for whom he had been searching was found.
Late at night he went to his sister's home. She had been worried about him and asked what was the matter. But Bhau did not divulge the reason for his restlessness.
Bhau could not sleep that night. He was about to leave the house at 4:00 A.M., when his sister asked where he was going so early. "For a walk," he said. She wanted to accompany him and her presence prevented him from proceeding to Baba's bungalow. When they returned, Bhau's brother-in-law, Ramlal Singh Gaharwar, asked him, "Why do you look so forlorn? You look positively lost."
"I'm all right," Bhau muttered. "Nothing is the matter with me. I'm just going out for a while."
Unbeknownst to Bhau, Ramlal's father, Maharaj Singh, had attended the Meherabad meeting of November 1952 to prepare for Baba's visit. Ramlal and Niradevi (Bhau's sister) also had Baba's darshan in Saoner in 1944, but they had never told Bhau about it. Although Bhau had seen Baba's name for the first time in the newspapers, his initial meeting with the Divine Beloved set his heart afire.
Bhau again went towards the Circuit House. Ranga Rao, his son and Dr. Kanakadandi were on their way back to Andhra, but Ranga Rao's son desperately wanted a garland from Baba before they left. Thinking this was a good excuse to have Baba's darshan, Bhau asked Ranga Rao to give him a note, requesting a garland from Baba and offered to take it to the Circuit House. Ranga Rao wrote the note, and Bhau went with it to Baba's bungalow.
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