Although it is possible for a man to know himself as God, what is it that draws him away? It is the power of the impressions of the first six stages of the first descent. Only when all these impressions are spent up, one knows himself as God. So, for this purpose, a man has to be born again and again, in the human form. This is what I mean by a stalemate.
While explaining these details, Baba closed his eyes and slowly opened them to indicate the gradual unfoldment of consciousness. When his eyes were opened completely, Baba looked around at all things, but not at his own body. This he explained can well be likened to the man who, having fully developed consciousness in a perfect form, knows all other things except himself (as God).
Pointing to the state of God in the Beyond, Beyond State Baba explained:
This state of God is beyond the comprehension even of God in the Beyond State. There is no beginning to it, and no end to it. It IS.
When God in the Beyond State begins to think of the Beyond, Beyond State, duality steps in. But first, in the Beyond State, the appearance of such a thought is an impossibility. In the beginning, God is unconscious. Then He becomes conscious. Now, if He wants to know what the first experienced state of unconsciousness is, He will have to be unconscious again, which is impossible. Once the Experience of consciousness of God is gained, it is eternal. Even if such a One takes millions of incarnations in the human form, it is not possible to experience the unconsciousness of the Beyond, Beyond State again. Yet, I say the Beyond, Beyond State exists, and it is the original state of us all. In the Beyond, Beyond State everything exists, but as nothing.
Baba concluded by saying: "All this is an attempt to understand that which is beyond understanding. What is of real worth is actually to become God. Let us pray to God for this."
Abdulla Jaffer related his experience to Baba. He said, "Baba, when I was repeating Allah hu this morning, I was about to fall asleep. But that very moment, I saw you sitting on my bed, and this saved the near break in the continuous repetition of God's name."
Baba mentioned the names of the mandali who kept guard at night near his room, commenting, "In the West for three months Nilu hardly slept a few minutes a day. Also, I remember well, Babajan used to sit all night without sleep. She used to lie down for only an hour, from 5:00 to 6:00 A.M."