Why should he have been so delighted to see us? Why me? These questions go round and round in your head for a long time after you meet him, as they are still doing in mine. This love that pours out is tangible, like a wave, but, unlike a wave, it pulls you like a magnet. Baba is all love, tangible love, and love beyond my poor brain to fathom. It was overwhelming and it left me in mild shock.
Time stood still and yet it seemed hours were going by, although it could only have taken me a few seconds to reach Baba. These moments are like eternities. Moments with Baba are all too short, but so many emotions and thoughts are crowded into them they extend into infinity.
We were told that Baba does not speak, but uses an alphabet board. I was under the impression that we would be allowed to walk in and past him quickly, as one would be allowed to look at the crown jewels, so I was totally unprepared to take the hand he extended to us, and I was wearing gloves! Baba dictated on his board, "I know them, but they do not know me." (How true that was, when I look back now!) And then he said something else about our love for God and his love for God, and what we would do. But, by then, my head was swimming and I did not comprehend very much.
What a turmoil I was in ... In the presence of Baba's love, all inadequacies stand out like sore thumbs. In the presence of ordinary persons, one does not like to feel inadequate. But with Baba, it is different. No matter how foolish and awkward you seem to be, you love even that because you are with Baba. One must experience it to know it. Baba understands; Baba loves. That is all that matters.
Baba told Bili and Philippe:
Remember, my love and blessings are ever present with you. Your work is my work, and what you do for those who come to you for help is done for me. Selfless service is my motto, and as you know, I teach you all by serving all humanity myself. I have nothing else but love to give and to convey. Do not ever feel disheartened about anything; you have only to try your very best, and leave the rest to me.