God knows how infinitely serious the matter is for me, and there must not be the least possibility of any hindrance to me in carrying out this God-determined Step.
Last night, I even felt that it would be best to set out all by myself. I then remembered all my limitations — my silence, my failing health, et cetera — which forced me to admit that I must not fool myself and that it was really not possible for me to go alone. I therefore have to consider your offers very carefully, and I shall let you know my decision later on.
The next morning, Friday, 29 June 1951, Baba finished discoursing on Manonash, a portion of which is reproduced here:
If you understand Manonash then maybe in February 1952, if I am not alive, you will be benefited.
Don't ask questions in the middle, because I will explain it as an ordinary philosopher. If you ask questions, I will have to explain the matter in a way which will have the impression of a Master explaining to a disciple. Understand the significance carefully and calmly.
Mind is never transformed. Ego is transformed once only. (By Ego is meant Astitva, meaning the Real I .) The transformation should clearly be understood.
Today you feel that you are a man. Tomorrow you die and then your mental impressions give you the feeling that you are a woman. All this is false. Mind's attitude is changed according to circumstances, but mind remains mind, whether it is lifted up or goes down. Mind can be happy, and it can be miserable. It is the attitude of the mind which thus changes. Mind creates worlds, delusions, illusions, ad infinitum — but mind remains as mind.
Mind cannot be transformed. Why? Because it is not One itself. Mind survives by desires and thoughts, and it is made up of impressions.