I ask God in all humility to help me achieve this desired end by February 12.
In the event of my physical death, the Arrangementwalas have to carry out the typed instructions I have given them, and Vishnu will carry out my instructions regarding the same.
I will be away from Hyderabad from October 16 to February 12. The women who are now with me will stay in Hyderabad during my absence. Vishnu has been given his duty in connection with them from July 1 to February 12.
During this period, from October 16 to February 12, I want to be absolutely free from any kind of hindrance, free to die and free to live without any boja [burden] of any kind. Anyone who wants to go through this dying process with me can join me; but I want every one of you to fully understand the magnitude of your mental preparation needed to stand by such a decision. I want you to bear in mind the difficulties at the start of the New Life in 1949 — the obstacles in your way, and the hindrances in mine — and I want no repetition of that. If you choose to accompany me from mere emotional impulse on your part, it will prove disastrous. If you come with me, it will actually be to face all kinds of untold difficulties and inconceivable hardships. Hardships that might include starvation, going without sleep, sickness, disability and complete hopelessness and helplessness at their extreme heights. It might mean experiencing 400 deaths in four months! I will have absolutely no responsibility and might have no concern whatever for anyone accompanying me.
I order the servants who are with me to choose between two things: to join me in this hopeless task or to stay at Hyderabad doing whatever duty I allot to them. In the latter case, they will be well provided for as regards food, clothing and pocket money for four months. None of the Arrangementwalas should offer to accompany me, because they have to carry out their responsibilities until the very end. Anyone of my Old Life disciples may join me. If, by the grace of God, I gain my objective by February 12, everything spiritual and material — or only spiritual, as the case may be — will be for my servants and Old Life disciples and devotees.
And yet, before I take this step on October 16, I want to try to help materially certain of my Old Life disciples and to adjust certain matters for some of them, in order to be free from every kind of boja . From July 1st to February 12, I might be available either to all, to a few, or to none.