You will not have to suffer again in that way, like your last physical suffering. I guarantee you that.
So, cheer up and be brave, and send me a good boy immediately!1
A week later on 22 September 1938, Baba further wrote to Raosaheb:
I love strong men. Strong in mind, strong in heart, and strong in spirit. (Body does not matter.) So those whom I love, I want them to be strong. I love you, so I want you to become strong. So I always warn you, threaten you, to keep away from weaknesses.
Why don't you like my taking interest in you? Does it mean that because you are physically away, you are no longer mine?
You always childishly say, "Baba is all-knowing, all-powerful and whatever bad or good we do is by his will ..." Well, if that is so, then all the suffering and happiness is also by Baba's will. Why then are you not satisfied with your lot? I want you to know once and for all I love you, and that whatever I do is for your ultimate spiritual good.
As I said in my last letter, I definitely guarantee that you won't suffer physically as you did last. Also, you won't become blind! But if you break my order the suffering will come on me! So be brave and try not to break the order. Try to be here on the 24th and 25th. If not, at least on the 25th.
And positively bring the udley [ideal boy] with you! The boy required should be alert, bright, intelligent, quick-moving, and above all pleasing in appearance. But don't bring any Chinese or Japanese ones like you did the last time.
Raosaheb later wrote to Baba that he was feeling very depressed. He claimed he had lost his blind faith in Baba. Soon after, Baba sent him this brief message:
I am glad your blind faith has been shattered, because now a "full-eyed" faith will take its place!
Thirty-six masts and mad were staying at lower Meherabad at this time, and Baba was occupied in serving them. Pleader had been summoned from Benares in late May (a few months ahead of schedule). He and Baidul were the supervisors of the mast and mad ashram, carrying out their duties according to Baba's instructions.
Baba would cut the hair of the masts and mad, and bathe, shave and feed them himself.
Footnotes
- 1.Baba was referring to the ideal or perfect boy that he was still in search of and that different mandali, such as Raosaheb, Chhagan and Jalbhai, were to find and bring to him.