Adi reached the third floor and caught Minta just as she was about to commit suicide. He took her to Baba, who pacified her and explained to her as she wept:
Spiritual jealousy leads to advancement, while material jealousy leads to ruination and hatred. Always remember: The impressions of the Beloved, whether in worldly love or divine love, have their effect on you.
If you love "A" his impressions will attach to your mind without your knowing it; and if you become jealous of someone else, the impressions of both will affect you. That is, if Kim loves me, my impressions, which are divine, will affect her; and if you are jealous of her, then my infinite impressions, plus hers of love for me, will both affect you.
Therefore, jealousy in physical love is not good, while jealousy in spiritual love is good. Where there is love, there is jealousy. One automatically follows the other; there is no need to create it.
For example: When you love me, you want to possess me all the while. If I go away from you to another place or to some other lover, you suffer.
Another important point is that those who love me suffer with me. There is no question about it. They can unload a tiny bit of my sufferings through their love. It is not that I want you to suffer, but when you love me, you do suffer, and this automatically lessens my suffering.
Peter loved Jesus very much, but every morning Jesus would kiss John, and Peter would become jealous of John.
Baba concluded, "On a mountain one day, I will explain who I am and how I created the universe. It was a different thing in India; now I will make both East and West meet."
Minta responded, "Your load of suffering is going to be much less, as so many will love you in America."
Baba replied, "You have no idea of my suffering, which is infinite. Now there will be no rest for me like this. It will be work — immense work — once I begin speaking."1
On the train to Lugano, Baba would cover his face and do his inner work. Kim lay practically the whole night with her head on Baba's feet, "in a bliss which is indescribable," she later related. They arrived in Lugano at 11:30 A.M. on Thursday, 28 April 1932 and stayed at the Grand Eden Hotel .
Footnotes
- 1.About the difference between Baba's indulgent treatment of the Westerners in the early years, versus how he behaved with the mandali, Adi Sr. once commented: "We were amazed at the restraint with which Baba related to the Westerners. Baba was particularly gentle; all the kicks were received by the mandali, and all the kisses were received by the Westerners!"