“”For the last two days, you have seen me prepare tea for everyone and cook the meal yesterday.
Chhota Baba has no work to do, except to stay with me. He will leave only for his tea and meals; otherwise, he will remain by my side day and night. He will have no duty, nor will he have my touch, but he will remain with me inside the hut. This is for his benefit, and no one should salute him or touch him, either.
I will mostly rest during the daytime inside the hut and do my work at night. No one should come to take my darshan, even from a distance. If at all I send for anyone for work, he should be careful not to touch me.
Continuing, Baba explained:
“”Why no touch? There is some great purpose behind it. It is said, "To be a lover is not easy." Yet it is more difficult to become the Beloved — I should say most difficult! Many can become lovers, but very, very few — almost none — can become the Beloved. The reason is that a lover gives up his body, mind, spirit, soul — in short, his very life — for the Beloved, who is not an ordinary, common beloved. A Murshid [Master] is no ordinary being and beloved. He is the knower of everything! He can order his lover to do anything at any time, which gives rise to doubts in the mind of the devotee. Such doubts bring about his undoing and the lover fails the Beloved.
Once a mureed [lover, follower] was sleeping by the side of his Master. After a short time, the mureed awakened and, finding the Master sleeping soundly, he sat in reverence by his side. All of a sudden, the Master had a nocturnal emission and woke up. To cleanse himself, he went to the river to bathe, quietly returned to his bed and went to sleep again. To the utter amazement of the mureed, the Master gets continual discharges throughout the night — 75 times — and each time, he woke up, went for a bath, and again lay down and fell asleep.
Seeing this, doubts assailed the disciple. "How could a Perfect Master suffer from wet dreams? And so many times!"
The next morning, the Master did not say anything and quietly went to his mandali. There, in the presence of all including the doubting disciple, he declared that he had had as many as 75 nocturnal emissions that night.
