“”His heart is very good, but his head is too strong. His love for me is excellent, but he is so obstinate that he will purposely do a thing that he is asked not to do. But don't mind that. Don't tell him not to do a thing, and he will eventually get tired and give it up.
Now in this journey, I will proceed on and on, even leaving those who are unable to stick to me or follow me for some reason or the other. So try to stick to me. He whose langoti loosens along the way will be left in the lurch!
I want a mountain to retire to for seclusion. But it is no use going back to the ones we have already crossed. Such a mountain will be found in Kashmir, and I shall be there for ten to twelve days, keeping one or two of you like Bua or Chanji with me for a few days.
Chanji asked, "Will you show us the grave of Christ there?"
Baba replied that he would and then continued:
“”Yes, I will show you such magnificent sights in Kashmir that you will be wonderstruck! But first let us go there. Once I sit in [seclusion] and come out, I will shoot! [Baba held his hand as if shooting a pistol; none of the mandali could follow what he meant by this sign.] Only do as I say, even against your will and wish. Don't become excited or angry. This journey is of the utmost significance. So, as I said, stick to me till the end and go on doing as I order.
Padri will drive the bus, Chanji will answer the correspondence, and Chhagan will cook. Thus, all should continue their close contact with me. But remember these lines from a Persian poem:
The more I desire union, the more my Beloved desires separation!
I have therefore given up my desire for union.
Now let the Beloved burn me in the fire of separation as long as he likes.
Baba again explained about Aga Ali and Ali Akbar:
“”Particularly, don't have any connection with the two boys, especially with Aga Ali. I may keep him closest to me, or I may keep him the furthest away; it will be as I choose. I only want him to progress in the Path where, if he were to enter it, he will have achieved something; otherwise, he may end up topsy-turvy.
